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Sunday, July 04, 2004
//And I find it kind of funny//
-x-I find it kind of sad-x-
/-/The dreams in which I'm dying/-/
**Are the best I've ever had**
The Week... In Muh Words.
What the fuck.
I give up.
-cries-
I've let so many people down it's not even funny.
I'm still pissed off at the whole Krystal thing.
I know I shouldn't be..
But it was upsetting.
Thrusday, I lost muh Softball game.
Friday, was boring as hell.
Short called muh Yesterday.
He's comming home Monday.
I'm happy.
Saturday was gay as all hell.
No one was at skating.
And I got in a fight with Chris.
Oui.
I'm gonna go die now.
Mathew <3
We've been talking as usual.
But not about the usual stuff.
Things haven't been good fer either of us this week.
I really hate living so far apart.
And I don't even know if I can move now.
Which really bites.
I really hope he feels better.
He's been really down
Because of Kristin...
His Ex.
I'm gonna murder her when I get out there!
-angry face-
Keith </3
He hasn't talked tew meh...
In the past few days.
All well.
I'll live I guess.
He doesn't care bout meh anyways.
Haha.
What a fool I was.
What a fool.
-dies-
Brandon </3
He hasn't been on tew talk tew.
So I dunno what's goin on there.
I miss him like crazii.
I really dew.
He likes some other girl though.
So oh well.
Lynzii <33
She's commin down tewnight.
We're going tew Washington.
Fer fireworks..
That is if it ever stops raining...
I hope it does...
I mished her lots.
We haven't seen each other
Since schools been out.
That's a long long long time!
Lols.
MattJon <3
Aww.
He's such a sweetie.
He's so nice tew meh!
Girls!!!
He's lookin fer a chick!
If yer interested Message him!
MattJon132.
He's awsome.
Said he'll talk tew Brandon.
Not like it matters.
But I hope he gets thru tew him.
MattJon is really great though.!
Love Ya!
Well...
Lynzii will be here in like 15 minutes..
So Imma go.
Even though no one ish talk to meh.
Later Emo Kids <//3
I hate muhself...
With A Passion...
<//3
CaIrUh
Posted at 7/4/2004 3:03:20 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Thursday, July 01, 2004
//You Smile Like A Saint But You Curse Like A Sailor
And Your Eyes Say The Jokes On Me...
Dashboard Concert <333333
I had a fuckin great time!
Dashboard Confessional is the greatest.
Chris Carraba is so hott.
I love him! HAHA!
Thrice was there too.
But I don't like them that much.
If at all.
The Get Up Kids were there too.
And then some local band that I didn't like.
I went for Dashboard!
I was happy.
Concert Aftermath <//3
We went to McDonalds
And got a drink and cookies.
Then dropped Brit off at the patch.
Then I came home to a message from Krystal.
I got bitched at for supposidly hurting Mathew
Cuz I had Keith in my away message
And Chris Carraba.
Hello...
I'm alloud to think of whoever I want...
Whenever I want.
It really pissed me off.
Mathew <33
I talked to him about the whole Krystal thing...
I dunno.
He apologized for her...
But it wasn't his fault
We argued for a little last night
And it just made me feel worse.
And I think it made him feel bad too.
I hope he trusts me tho.
I can't help it I have a lot of guy friends...
Oui.
I love Mathew though.
More then anything.
Me <//3
I had a great time at the concert.
Then I came home and got bitched at.
And that ruined my night..
Completely ruined it.
But hey, who wants Cara to be happy.
No one.. that's right.
I cut last night and this morning.
I feel all shitty inside.
My eyes burn.
Some guy was drunk at the concert last night..
And fell on me.
He smelt.. really bad.
I was in a few mosh pits.
I didn't break my clippie this time.
Yay for me!
Brandon <3
He was suppose to go..
But didn't.
I missed him.
I wanted to call him..
And let him listen to the concert on my cell.
Blah.
I still think he completely hates me
And is just using me...
But oh well...
Keith <3
Me and Keith are talking like good old times again.
I'm happy about that.
Really happy.
It's good to talk to him again.
Well...
Even though no one is talkin to me on AIM
I guess I'll go back to it.
Later Emo Kids <3
I love yOu Mathew <333
<//3
Cara
Posted at 7/1/2004 6:11:01 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Dashboard Concert! 5 hours!!!!!
//*When everything feels like the Movies...
You bleed just to know yOur alive...
Dashboard Concert <3333
5 fuckin hours till I get to see Sexii Chris Carraba.
And my Sexii Britty.
I'm so excited.
I was so hyper yesterday at Eat N' Park.
It was funny.
I was laughin my ass off
So was my mommie.
I'm just so fuckin excited!
OMIGOSH!
AHHHH!
5 hours!
Brandon <//3
Brandon isn't going to the concert anymore.
He couldn't get tickets.
I felt bad.
Not like he cares.
He hates me.
I know it
He's using me...
It sucks.
Cuz I really liked him.
But oh well.
Sometimes he acts nice to me...
Then he turns around and acts like a complete jerk.
He's so confusing...
Mommie And Big Brover <33
My mommie is even excited about the concert
She likes Dashboard too.
My mommie is so cool.
I love her.
I just really wish my dad would sign the custody papers.
So I could atleast LOOK for a house in Michigan
And get registered in Allan Park High School.
My Big Brover stopped down yesterday.
He was out partying the night before
So he was like...
Barley Sober.
I'm glad me and him are talking again.
He IS my big brover after all.
Keith </3
Well we've been talking a lot the last few days.
Talkin like we used to talk.
I asked him why he stopped talkin to me.
I feel better knowing now.
But I'm kinda upset that he didn't just say something.
Oh well...
I'm just glad we're talking like old times again.
It's nice.
Mike Larkin <//3
-gasp-
Talk about blast from the past
He talked to me last night.
About a girl he likes.
I was like..
Okay then...
I guess he's gotten taller.
And whatnot.
I guess it was nice talkin to him again.
He said he's gonna have to invite me up sometime
-shakes head-
Silly boy.. silly silly boy.
Lols.
Me </3
I've been talkin to alot of my old friends.
It's really nice.
I missed a few of them.
And the others I could care less about.
Concert tonight and I'm excited as can be...
Skating Saturday... fun.
4th of July I don't have anything to do.
Which sux.. cuz I could be in Michigan...
But Nooo my mommie's boss has to be a dickmuncher.
Oui.
I'm goin up Shelly's the 5th for a little party thinger.
Get my braces off August 3.
34 Days!
Mathew <33
Yay, my Mathew.
He's great.
I love him.
I didn't get to talk to him for a couple days.
His mommie was being bitchy.
Oh well.
I'm talking to him now and I'm happy.
I can't wait to see him.
I love him so much.
Tyler <33
Tyler likes me now.
I dunno if I should happpy
Or creeped out.
Lols.
He's great.
I'm glad he likes me.
He's so nice.
He put my picture on his Blog
And asked people to rate me!
I can't help it I'm ugly Tyler...!
Ouiness. Haha.
We have to talk on the phone again soon!
Lols.
Welp, the concert is getting closer
And I'm getting more excited.
So I'm gonna go before I die.
HAHA!
Later Emo Kids <33
Love Ya Chris Carraba!
And everyone else.
Haw Haw!
I love Mathew Zalewski. <33333
I dunno bout yOu anymore Brandon Varga. <//33
<3
*CaRa*
Posted at 6/30/2004 10:45:17 am by lovexmexNOTx
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
Does Anyone Even Read These??
*//*Someday*//*
I'll a.p.p.r.e.c.i.a.t.e in value,
get off my ass and call {you}
but for the *meantime*
I'll sport my //brand new// fashion
of waking up with pants ON
at 4:00 in the aFtErNoOn.
Saturday <3
I woke up kinda late...
I was bored.
My mommie took me to Dairy Queen.
I got a Chili and Cheese Hot Dog.
Then Came home and just waited for 6 to roll around.
Then I got ready for Skating
Brandon still doesn't know I'm mad at him.
Oh well.
He doesn't need to know I guess.
Skating <3
Lee was there! <3333333
I was soooooo happy to see her.!
Juli was there too
And Tracy
And Nicole
And Coombie
And all my guy friends.
Then my KATIE BABY <33333 showed up and I was a happy person.
Alexis was with her.
She got me skating with this one guy.
He's 13, he's a cutie.
His name is Timmy.
Doubt anything will happen between us.
Cuz I got Mathew <333
I had a great time though.
Like I always do. Hehe.
Mathew <3
He wasn't on at all yesterday.
He was at Krystal's Brother's Graduation Party.
And he hasn't been on alot today either.
-shrugs- As long as he's havin a good time I'm fine.
I just wish he wasn't so... I dunno, not jealous...
But I guess protective of me and other guys.
It's all good though.
I love him to death.
Timmy <3
Aww he's sooo cute!
He's the little 13 year old I met at skating
He acts like he's older though.
He's a cutiepie.
And really nice.
I'm sure I'll talk to him more in the future.
He's just so cute. Lols.
Keith <//3
He hasn't been on.
I guess he's moving now...
He wont be on till Tuesday.
I dunno if I should call him or not.
I don't think Mathew would like that.
I still think he (keith) hates me...
And I'd really like to know why he stopped talking to me...
Just out of the blue...
But, oh well.
Dashboard Concert <33 and Brit <3
It's 3 fuckin days away
And I'm excited as can be!
I can't wait.
I love love love love love love love Dashboard!!!
And I love love love love love love love love Brit!
My mommie is getting seats RIGHT IN THE FRONT!
It's gonna be the greatest ever.
Me <//3
Not many people have talked to me..
In the past couple days.
I feel so alone!
-cries-
Did I do something??
Cuz I sure feel like I did.
And I still hate Brandon...
-cough-
o.0
Blah...
Well Imma go now...
And wait for someone to talk to me..
Later Emo Kids <3
Love yOu!
And I mean it!
I'm in a semi good mood...
I love Mathew Zalewski! <3333
I dunno about yOu Brandon Varga <333
Timmy is such a cutiepie! Lols.
<3
*CaRa*
Posted at 6/27/2004 3:20:03 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
I Feel Like Shit, Does Anyone Care?
//.*Found a box of sharp objects
What a beautiful thing*.//
The Show <3 and Brandon </3
It was good.
Nikki <3 was there (Lee's little sister)
I saw Brandon... <//3
Gave him his necklace
Now I can't talk to him.
He took me into a chatroom last night
And practically ignored me
Then started talkin about how much he liked some other girl.
I felt like shit all night.
But the show was good.
The Wings is a totally great band <3
Keith </3
Keith talked to me again last night...
Wow.. he's on a roll now.
I dunno, I just wish I could talk to him about how I feel.
But I'm too scared.
He's moving...
Wants me to call him...
I dunno if I should or not.
I'll end up crying again.
Mathew <3
We talked last night.
He finally came out and asked if there was anything between me and Brandon.
I told him the truth..
We're just friends...
And now we're barely that.
But I love my Mathew.
I really really do.
I hope I can see him if we go out there.
He asked me to sing for the band him and his friend are making.
I feel special now.
I love him so much <3
Dashboard Show <<33333 and Brit <3
It's not that far away.
I can't wait.
I love love love love love love love Dashboard. <3333333
And I love love love love love love love love Brit too. <3
My mommie is even excited to go.
She likes them too.
My mommie is cool.
My Brother... </3
He stopped by last night.
Practically took us to the show.
But yea, he talked to me like I was a person instead of an animal.
It was nice.
We were on our way to the show and my mommie was driving
She was kinda stopped at a red light but she took her foot off the break to look for something
And she started drifting thru it and Jarrod was like...
Mom that's a red light, normal people stop at it.
It was funny...
Then we were lookin for the Italian Club and she went right thru a stop sign
I was like, Mom that was a stop sign...
She's like, No it wasn't.
And I'm like.. uh yea it is
And Jarrod goes, I guess the ones with the white border around them only mean yeild to her
It was really funnny.
Skating <33
Tonight is Beach Night at skating.
I get to wear my bikini.
Yay!
Daniels gonna be there <33333
He's so awsome.
I hope Lee is there. <333333
I haven't seen her in like a month
And I miss my Hott Momma. -tearage-
Well I dunno what else to say.
I'm pretty bored though...
Imma go..
Later Emo Kids <//3
I love yOu all.
Well... with the exception of two...
They know...
I love yOu Mathew Zalewski <333
I **** yOu Brandon Varga <//3
<3
*CaRa*
Posted at 6/26/2004 12:09:51 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Friday, June 25, 2004
Only good thing is... Show Tonight...
//Our {eyes} are placed in front
Because it's more i.m.p.o.r.t.a.n.t
to lOOk *ahead*
Then to [lOOk back...]
Fuck yOu all...
Ya'll need to check yOurselves.
I'm so sick of everyone telling me I can't move.
Fuck yOu all.
It's hard on me too damnit!
Atleast I'm gonna come back...
I could be a bitch and not come back at all...
yOu know that.
I could delete and block all of yOu from my lists...
But I'm not, I'm coming back.
So get over it.. and leave it alone.
Brandon <33
Anyways...
There's a show tonight.
It's at the Charleroi Italian Club
I'm going wit Joey <3
He's gonna drop me off
And I get to see Brandon <33
And give him his present I got him at Sandcastle.
It's sooo cute!
Kinda like him. Lols.
I can't wait.
Mathew<33
I like seriously think Mathew <3 has a problem wit me talkin to Brandon.
It's kinda upsetting, but I trust him
And he says he doesn't
And I know he trusts me.
So we should be good.
I can't wait to get out there and see him.
It's gonna be the greatest.
Tyler <33
Me and Tyler <3 talked on da phone last night for a while.
It was nice...
I hope we stay close even when I move.
I know we will though.
He's so great to me...
Keith...<//3
Keith <//3 talked to me last night.
I cried... it was sad.
We never talk.
That'll be the first and last time we talk
In forever.
I know it
He hates me.
For some weird reason.
But that doesn't matter any.
Sandcastle...
Sandcastle was pretty gay yesterday.
I hung out wit Juli <33 and Sam the whole day.
Only good thing, I got to see my LC. Hehe.
I love Juli. She's great.
I miss her.
Brit <3
We're still goin to da Dashboard concert together.
Yayness.
I'm happy.
She's moving though, and I feel bad.
Moving sux when yOur being forced to.
But when yOu want to it's different.
We're gonna have a blast at the concert.
Outgoing...
Well.. I'm on da phone wit Brit..
And no one is talkin to me..
On AIM or MSN or Yahoo...
So I'm prolly gonna go somewhere..
And be alone by me... Hah.
Later Emo Kids <3
I hate yOu all.
Yep.
I love Mathew Zalewski <33
I love Brandon Varga <33
<3
Cara
Posted at 6/25/2004 12:00:54 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004
;*Im GlAd Im ShOrT CuZ..
y0u'll NeVeR see the
-x- s t a r s -x-
if y0u`re always l00king d0wn**
I love my Mathew Zalewski, He's so cute!
ElChufu: gah... last time i was this bored, i came up with my famous "abe lincoln was a sandwhich" theory
Lil x Pug: Oh?
Lil x Pug: Haha.
ElChufu: yes... its all in the name
ElChufu: Abraham
Lil x Pug: o.0
ElChufu: lol, do u want to hear this....?
Lil x Pug: Sure....
ElChufu: i'd understand if it makes u not love me anymore
ElChufu: :-P
Lil x Pug: That's not gonna happen.
ElChufu: ok :-)
ElChufu: break down abraham into sylables
ElChufu: A-Bra-Ham
Lil x Pug: a bra ham....
ElChufu: A.... means one... singular
ElChufu: so, they are the same thing, and therefor can be interchanged
ElChufu: so.... one-bra-ham
ElChufu: the second part... bra
ElChufu: what goes in bra's?... breast's of course
ElChufu: so the word bra, will now be synonomous with breast
ElChufu: so... one-breast-ham
ElChufu: ham...
ElChufu: ham goes in sandwhiches
ElChufu: ... but, it also comes from a pig
ElChufu: and how many pigs do u think it would take to make a sandwhich?
ElChufu: ...one... well... less than one, but for the sake of the theory, lets go with one
ElChufu: thus, ham, has two places in the theory... it is interchangable with one, and ham... but the pig goes into a sandwhich
ElChufu: therefore, Abraham lincoln was a pig breast sandwhich
ElChufu: TADA!
Isn't he cute! Lols. I was crackin up
It was seriously great.
I just really think that... maybe,
He has a problem wit me talkin to Brandon <33 as much as I do.
I dunno tho.. he says he doesn't.
I was talking to Brandon <33 today for like... 8 hours.
It was great, we killed my cell 2ce
Then used my homeline.
It was funny.
He's so great.
If I end up going wit Joey to da concert Friday I'll get to see him.
And then again on Sunday cuz I'm going to his Hockey Game.
Cuz I'm Kew like dat. Lols.
Tomorrow is Sandcastle, wee what fun.
Well technically today is Sandcastle..
But who's keeping track. Lol.
I dunno what to say...
I just wanted to post that cuz I thought it was oober cute.
Can't wait till July 2nd.
It's gonna rock0rs.
Wewtles...!
I talked to Phil <3 today
It was breif but fun.
We're gonna hang out sometime soon at skating.
Fun...
Well Imma go now, I guess.
Later Emo Kids <3
Love yOu all. I think...
Maybe...
I love Mathew Zalewski.<33
I love Brandon Varga <33
<3
Cara
*)/
Posted at 6/23/2004 10:39:42 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
**There's a s.m.i.l.e on my Face
and it's 2:55 AM...
This cramp in my [wrist]
put's my back to SlEEp
Till it ALL comes around
A.G.A.I.N//
Well this is my first entry.. technically. But yea..
I guess I'm kinda happy
But then again kinda depressed
I've been thinkin a lot lately...
It's scary... thinking is bad
Not too awful much has been going on...
Dashboard Concert is on the 30...
Me and Brit </3 got into a fight over god knows what
so I don't know who I'm taking anymore
Most likely I'll take Shelly Belly I hope she can go...
I'm going up Chris's on Friday if my mommie allows.
I'll get to meet the wonderful Bre <3
She's so cool. I love her. She loves Emo. I love Emo.
We're cool. Oh yea.. we're cool.
I miss Short we never hang out anymore... like ever
He's my brother, he's so cute I love him.
I spent the night at Ashley's last night <3
She's awsome, although she didn't wake up till after I left..
Loser.. haw haw but I love her.
Me and Kala are going to Daniel's <3 hockey game tomorrow
I have to pick up my contacts first though..
Finally they've come in.
Thursday I'm going to Sandcastle wit my church..
Fun.. No? No.. Hah.
But hey... I get to be a fat whale as I walk around in my bikini.
Yay
Then it's Friday and I get to go see my Chris... and my Bre <3
Wewtles.
July 2nd is close...
I'm going to Michigan for the 4th of July.
I might get to see my baby baby Matt <333
I love him a lot and a lot.
I hope I don't see Keith though.
I'll cry...
We haven't talked in so long..
It's like he doesn't even know I exsist anymore.
It's sad, it really is.
But I dunno, it was probably somehow my fault.
I know that Matt loves me though, and that's all I need to pull me through.
I love yOu Matt! -Muah!-
Well I suppose I'm going to go...
Nothing more to say.
Later Emo Kids <3
Love yOu all... I think.
NOT.
<3
Cara
Posted at 6/22/2004 9:24:37 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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Ummmmm..........HI!!! Im SPECIAL cuz i get to make the first entry in da blog!! YAYAYAYA i kno i kno im just to good but i cant help it.......im bored......u see that pic over ont the left side of the site?? Ya thats right...i put that pic there U KNO IT!!!! well ima leave now cuz cara hates me and she prob dont want me to type this much...im just kidding!!! ikno she dont hate me! but neways ima go now
-The One and Only Gary Bieneck
Posted at 6/22/2004 1:43:03 pm by lovexmexNOTx
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